BANAK tell me if this is alright!

Everything you say...

Is an argument...so just SHUT UP!

This is what you just told me.

When you want me to talk, just let me know. Oh wait, that's never.

Everytime I talk to you I now feel bad.

You never really want to hear my feelings, I realize that, and sometimes I wish you could just pretend better.

I am trying so so so so hard to thank you for hurting me, and focus on the positive, not to focus on the negative. Yes you hurt me, and to refrain from hurting me was just so so so so hard for you. I know that. I deserve to be hurt.

Profane WIP

Travis by Banak

ISN'T IT AWESOME!? SIDEBURN POWER!

The nose progress

Vlad fail

Christmas Profane

Hey Banak...let me know if this is semi-accurate and if I can fix anything. It's not the christmas present, but you need one.

And then you told me that I didn't Help at All

I tried to tell you my feelings and relate to you, but you got frustrated and told me I didn't help. If only I could have had you relate to me and tell me more of your fears. I know you wanted me to discount them so heavily and I really wanted to, but right now I am plagued by my own fears of death. Adding those on to me only gave me one choice; to confide myself in you. That wasn't what you were looking for, but it was what I had.

I thought I could give you something but instead you told me not to talk about it. Then you assumed I was upset about something else just because your mind wandered from the subject. That was the end of the subject for you, but your frustration and those words really were the beginning of upsetting self-hatred for me. I don't know how to explain the pain I feel right now with you sitting there thinking I am posting.

There was one thing I was looking forward to, and with you stressed about death, this RP is going to drown. Then you told me this scene which was so important to me is going to be "two seconds". Those words have a large bearing on me and you don't realize how important they are for me. I just really cannot tell you how much this has crushed my spirit right now. I just wanted to hear "even if it's two minutes, it'll be huge, and fun, and we're going to write this scene!". Now knowing that your character is going to storm off, it's like ruining everything you told me before. You told me Terrence would stay and say things like "see he has changed" or "things are different". You also gave away the end of the fight without even giving it a chance. I don't know what to do right now. I just want to drown in my own misery and yet I really don't have any way to fix it. How can I fix this? How? There's nothing I can do for this intense pain that is inside of me.

I am not writing the post. You will be angry when you hear about it. You will be frustrated from lack of sleep. It'll probably take another 10 minutes of your patience to ask me about it. You don't know that all this pain bubbling up inside of me is from the fact that you had a frustrated outburst at me telling me that I didn't help and that you were going to die. You have no idea how those words and the way you said them hit me, and you didn't even give me a chance to discount it. You didn't say sorry for the outburst, or oh it's okay you can help somehow. Instead the words I meant to comfort you or console you were just spat back with stress and I am here taking it as it comes. HOW CAN I DO ANYTHING RIGHT!? I feel so so so so stressed and there's no way to "drag the subject back to what it was". You killed the subject in your head, it meant nothing the way you said those words, not in the way that it meant to me.

WHAT DO YOU EXPECT ME TO DO!? What can I do? I want you to go to bed and I will make up the RP in my head, pretending the fight goes as epically as I thought. It's all I have before I get completely to messed up; to post and I can't even figure out how to work anything. Please please please please pleaseplease help me figure this out someone. The anger is going to kill me. I really don't have anything to say to your obsession with going to disease websites. It brings out my insecurities but I try not to let that plague you.

You hid it on purpose. I asked you before because I knew you were stressed and frustrated. Now. Now, what? What is there that is left for us? Nothing for me. At least you can go to sleep tonight and then there will be something for me....in my head....because the RP scene sucks and you just even said it would mean nothing. I feel like my stomach is dying. I can't do anything to fix it. Please help me someone. I really just want to feel more physical pain to make myself and other people care, but the pain is soon becoming a refuge since you just discounted this scene in the RP that I am trying so hard to imagine. What am I supposed to do!? PLEASE I HAVE NOBODY TO TALK TO I AM SO TIRED OF TALKING TO THIS BLANK, FAKE SCREEN! You will be mad if I tell you I have been typing here the whole time! You haven't even asked yet. I feel like when you do you will explode. I am so so so so so so so so so so so so so so so scared. So so so so so so so disappointed. What is left for me!? When will comfort come!? WHEN WILL COMFORT COME!? I am so disappointed in myself right now. I risk it all.

I can't believe you asked me what was wrong. Thank you thank you THANK YOU!

Your silence is not helping me.

I wasn't helpful. I wasn't helpful. I wasn't helpful. I wasn't helping. I wasn't helping. I'm not helping. I don't help. I wasn't the least bit helpful. I'm never helpful. I don't help when you have problems. I don't help ever. I don't help. I don't. Everyone knows that. It's not just me berating myself, everyone tells me. When it comes to the time of need, I don't help. I just make it worse. I just make people not want to hear.

Stupid idiot. Didn't help at all. Wasted a golden moment.

Smokescreen Backup

“Smokescreen” Band Members:

Pronk’s Characters

Daniel Quinn Blyton ---“Shrew” and now “Dick Cheney”, [personal nicknames: “My bitter”, “Lovely”, “Silly”, “Silly Muffins”, “Love”---Bassist

Hair: Black

Eyes: Green

Height: 5’ 9’’

Heritage/Ethnicity: “American” (English, Irish, German, Nordic ftw, some French)

Birthday: 1/19/1991

Snyder Oliver Sullivan “Stringbean”, “The Twist”, “Beanstalk”----Lead Singer

Hair: Dark brown (dyed black and red)

Eyes: Light blue

Height: 6’8’’ (wth)

Heritage/Ethnicity: “American” (Irish, English mostly, some Scandinavian somewhere from mom’s side)

Birthday: February 12, 1988 (Aquarius)

Martin Robert Brust “Martini” or “My favorite Martin”, “Hilary Clinton”---Drummer

Hair: Blond

Eyes: Blue

Height: 6’0’’

Heritage/Ethnicity: Finnish, Swiss, some English, born in America.

Birthday: 1988

Jack Bastion Callahan---“Jack in the box”, “Jack Daniels” for joke pairings with Shrew, “Jack Frost” on Christmas, “Jack-O-Lantern” on Halloween, “LumberJack” for kicks, “Jackal”, “Jack the Ripper”, “Jack Attack”, “Jack Smack”, “Applejack”, “CrackerJack”, “Jacked Up”, “Jack knife”, “Jacket”, “Straight Jacket”, “FlapJack”, “HiJack”, “Jackpot”, “Kangaroo Jack”, “Jack Sparrow”, “Jack Skellington”, “Jack of all trades”, “Jack***”, “Jumping Jack”, “Jack and the beanstalk”, “Jack Lamp”---Lead Guitar

Hair: Medium to dark brown (dyed any which color)

Eyes: Brown? Idk

Height: 5’11’’

Heritage/Ethnicity: “American” (haven’t figured out yet)

Birthday: July 5, 1988

Peter Riley Pratchett----“Peter Pan”, “Sarah Palin”, “Peter Piper”, “Petie Wheatie”, “Peter Rabbit”---Keyboard

Hair: Dark brown

Eyes: Hazel

Height: 5’ 10’’

Heritage: “American” (don’t care)

Birthday: December 29, 1987

Hayley Le Guin---Martin’s girlfriend

Gisele Van Vranken---Martin’s ex-girlfriend (French)

Hellboy---Snyder’s calico male cat.

UFO---their Doberman pup

Emily Kaylie Callaghan (Jack younger sister)

Age: 8

Sarah Callaghan (Mom)

Joel Callaghan (Non-blood father)

Joseph Callaghan “Zipface” “Cassandra” “Sjövred”

Miles Kiefer Lancaster

Age: 15

Sean Lancaster

Age: 22

Bethany Catrina Lancaster

Age: 13

Magnus Eugene Sullivan---Father

Lawyer

Cornelius Patrick Sullivan---Brother

Marie Irene Sullivan (maiden name: Saibh) (passed)

Alice Joy Blyton (younger sister)---“Lissy”

Birthday: April 6, 1995

Katherine Elyse Blyton (Older sister)---“Katie”

Awesome Mom Blyton

Super Dad Blyton

Clarissa Knickerbacker “Aunt Clarissa”

Markus Konstantin Forrsell

Synnove Viveka Forrsell

Annika Tilde Forrsell---“Annie”

Rolf Elias Forrsell

Nea Kerstin Forrsell

Olivia Sofia Valberg

Benjamin Rune Valberg---“Ben”

Anton Tobias Valberg

Dad Valberg (divorced status)

Daxal Vincent Fieldman---“Dax”

Christine Fieldman

Roger Fieldman

Vladimir Nikolai Lazarskav

Pavel Lazarskav

Svetlana Lazarkav

Gunner Hamin Savino

Roman Tucker Wiese

Ordelia Josie Steele---“Delly”

Height: 6’0’’

Pet Iguana---Wallace

Had a female garden snake---Tina

Grows plants, ladybugs, and silkworms.

Claudia Natalie Blume---“Cloudy”

Height: 5’5’’

Evil

Maxwell Blume—father

Tracy Blume--Mother

Kyle Sigmond Joeri (Dutch)

Seamore Felix Lorent

Rachel Kacy Wrian

Age: 19

Faye Marie Gold

Age: 18

Kiesha Woodle

Eyes: Blue

Hair: Brown

Race: Partially African American, partially Swedish

Phoebe Angela Kiersted

Age: 19

Hair: Light brown, medium length

Eyes: Light brown

Height: 5’2’’

Miscellaneous: Freckles, sporty

Wednesday Elaine Wholestein

Sarah Kiersted

Age: 23

Age: 16 (going on 17!!) 1992 birth year

Sibs:

Christian Robert Wholestein

Age: 18

Jude Elias Wholestein

Age: 20

Morgan Brienna Wholestein

Age: 23

Calum Desmond Wholestein

Age: 26

Part of Rocker Club (the tenth sense):

Tim Watcat Giddeon

James Adrian Sough

Jack’s Roommates

Adrian (met in gen-ed, senior)

Jay (hot girlfriend, gym)

Erin Catherine Baker (girl)

Nolan (cooking)

Rick (party)

George (dad’s connections, sophomore)

Angelique Adele Fournier

Caroline “Carrie” Rosaline Smithers

Tyler Stryker Tanner

Joshua Alexander Baker

Bethany “Beth” Jillian Baker

Banak’s Characters

David Coquin Kimimyoto---“Rascal”

Mom Kimimyoto

Dad Kimimyoto

Jessica Eleanor Morrison---“Jess”

Birthday: August 23, 1988 (Virgo)

Derik Curtis Morrison

Accountant 1 Morrison

Accountant 2 Morrison

Gabrielle Bridgette Morrison (Jess cousin #1)

Sage Nikki Morrison (Jess twin cousin #2) “Sloan”

Sullivan “Sully” Andrew Dresdon (redhead rocker dude)---“Clyde”

Nathaniel Philip Alcott---“Nate”

Madison Felicia Alcott

Cassidy Belle Alcott

Trinity Melissa Alcott

Arabella Kit Alcott (soon to be Judge)---“Ella”

Alyssa Robin Alcott

Hunter Theodore Judge

Hansel Falken Gretton---“George Bush”

Hair: Blond

Eyes: Blue

Height: 6’4’’

Heritage/Ethnicity: German, Austrian, Norwegian, born in America

Birthday: 5/23/1986

Pet-Merry (Australian Shepherd Border Collie mutt).

Genevie Armina Gretton---“Professor G” (maiden name: Barth)

Jon Einer Gretton (father)

Vivian Dolly Rae---“Viv”

Izabella (Izz) Kitty Markson

Birthday: July 4, 1990

Edward (Tatts) Walter Markson

Birthday: November 30, 1983

Vincent (Vinny) Ernesto Christensen

Vallery Ashley Christensen

Mom Christensen

Tobias (Toby) Vincent Grey

Piper Charlotte Grey

Jean Grey (cousin)

Dillan Angus De La Garza---“Dillian Dillweed” and “Dilltastic” and “Dill Pickle” and “Dill-icious” and “Dillards” and “Dillywaggle” and “

Travis Flint Skinner---“Skinner”

Gwen Laurel Browneyes

Matilda “Tilly” Lynn Browneyes

Age: ??

Rob Patterson (Tatt’s soon-to-be-ex-friend)

Jane Ae-Cha Smith---“Katana Girl”

Brandon Karl Peter

Terrence Lyle (brother) Peter

Chuck Hirsch

Varden Kendell Leach

Viktor Alonzo Kiss

Minor backups:

Marissa (Shrew coworker)

Zach (Shrew coworker)

Miscellaneous Section:
Susan

Mildred Awesomesauce2000

Beluga Whale

Barnso

Bremalda the maid

Geraldine(?) the maid

Their Future Children

Wesley Sullivan ß--Jess and Snyder’s baby boy

Augustus Steele-Grey, Penelope Steele-GreyßToby and Ordelia if they become a couple

Blair MarksonßClaudia and Tatts’ kid

Angie is Joseph’s Boyfriend’s daughter. Angie’s mom and dad are both French, and her mom is Rascal’s mom’s best friend from college in France. Her dad came out after he was divorced and helped her get into modeling.

Josh is Erin’s younger sibling and he has a younger sister named Beth. They have a single dad because [insert here].

Jean is Toby’s cousin. They do not get along.

Additional Sketches

Out of nowhere....we have Tryler!!!

Looks like Banak and I got ourselves into some random tangent in the RP, who would have thought Travis would be a good portion of the story?

I realize I never introduced Travis. Travis is Banak's character, and he has a messed up past full of masochism, drinking, smoking, and then finally seven years of therapy and support to work it off. The only time he came into the story before was when Tatts (Edward) reminisced about back-in-the-day when they were high school rebels and did all kinds of bad stuff. Travis was supposed to be the worst off in the gang, provoking fights on purpose in a completely masochistic way. This goes on into his relationships.

Tyler is mine and is more random. He just popped into the story and somehow he and Travis got their lives tangled up by sheer accident, and now they're basically emotionally connected whether they like it or not. I'm not too sure what Tyler looks like, but I know Travis has reddish hair and is taller than Tyler. Tyler's hair keeps changing color, but this is my attempt to even try to sketch them out.

I apologize for butchering Travis. At least I have an excuse with Tyler. Also, in these pictures Travis and Tyler keep switching outfits, not to mention faces.

Snyder as complete as he's going to get

Jess is probably telling him a story about opossums.

Snyder?! No

No